Come August 2007, I have mild spotting, I thought menstruation ko na. Then nawala ulit. So I told Dra. Sia about it. Maybe hormonal imbalance daw. After two weeks, wala pa din si Aunt Flow (code name for red alert :-D), I took pregnancy test, positive…yipeee…..I’m pregnant again!
My OB advised me to bed rest again. Then ultrasound after a week.
The ultrasound showed no heartbeat, the OB advised to repeat it after a week ulit,
Parang gumuho ang mundo ko, I blamed myself, I blamed Ryan.
I undergone once again another D & C. That is the saddest day of my life!
Then, we moved on!
2008 and 2009 – This time, because we are really eager to be a parent, we tried different scientific approaches and superstitions to help us conceive. Eating sunflower seeds, acupuncture, putting pillow under my butt while making love – the higher the better,
(I know right..hehe), drinking herbal supplements etc.
Through it all, we also stormed heavens with lots of Novena prayers – Black Nazarene in Quiapo, intercession of Blessed John Paul the Second, we also went to Obando to pray for fertility.
Come 2009, another missed period. Yes, it’s positive once again. Maybe because of my past experiences, di na ako masyadong excited.
What I feel is fear. Two miscarriages were not a joke.
However, maybe it’s not yet the right time, that’s what I always believe.
And yes, another blighted ovum. This time, immune na ako sa pain.
I just prayed hard that I will be able to accept the reality.
The difference with my 3rd pregnancy is that hindi na ako ni-“raspa”, meaning no operations done.
It came out naturally. Hindi pa din ako pinabayaan ni Lord. 😀
2010 to 2012 – we let go and let God fulfill His promise. Deep in my heart, I always believe that He has purpose why things happened.
We have faith in Him. We took rest from any scientific approaches and medical consultation.
And continue serving Him through attending Feast – our weekly prayer gathering.
The dream of having a child is always written in our Novena to God’s love prayer booklet.
As usual, positive.
When we met her, she gave me “pampakapit”, but after a week, I experienced again mild spotting.
At that time, we are in Mandaluyong, we attended a friend’s wedding. I told Ryan what happened and we immediately go to the nearest clinic with ultrasound.
Before the Sonologist check me, I whispered a short prayer, telling God that it’s all up to Him, that everything will be alright because I trust Him.
True enough, the Sonologist told me that there is a heartbeat already, that’s the first time I heard the good news, I don’t know how to react. Fear, happiness, fear, excitement…oh my!
As per the ultrasound result, I’m having mild spotting because of internal bleeding.
And because we are in Mandaluyong, a trip going back to Cavite is not advisable. Thank God for our very supportive friend, Joel, we stayed at their house overnight. Good thing our Ninang Luz (Joel’s mother) is going to Dasmarinas, Cavite the next day, hinatid na nila kami sa La Salle medical Center.
God is so good, He sent good people along the way!
My OB advise me to bed rest for 2 weeks, several blood tests were also done in order to check what causes my previous miscarriages. The result showed that I have APAS or Antiphospholipid Antibody Syndrome. Until now, hindi ko pa din ma-explain sa mga friends ko ang meaning ng APAS in layman’s term. What I understand is that it is related to formation of blood clots, that my immune system was trying to terminate the pregnancy, hence my repeated miscarriages. Because of APAS, I have another doctor who specializes in Immunology and because of that I had to take several medicines to ensure my baby’s health.
When everything is back to normal, I also went back to work. Nakapag bakasyon pa nga kami before my birthday. hehe…
At Crosswind Tagaytay, I was 4 months pregnant here…
But when I reached my 28th weeks, my amniotic fluid suddenly dropped to a dangerous level, I was hospitalized for 1 week to be hydrated. Then, my OB advised me not to go back to work, complete bed rest this time. My immunologist instructed me to take aspirin and inject Heparin every 12 hours.
Yes mga friendship, ako ang nagtuturok sa tiyan ko, at first takot ako, pero nasanay na rin. I had to do that for almost two months.
From that time, my check-up was weekly na, same with ultrasound. Imagine how much money we need for my check up, medicines and ultrasound, it was so hard. But God did not abandoned us. He blessed us unexpectedly thru our relatives, my husband’s work incentives and others.
Come D-Day, we (my OB, me and Ryan) agreed that I will give birth on October 30. Since I have APAS, I am not allowed to give birth via normal delivery, buti na yung siguradong okay kami ni baby di ba, kahit medyo expensive pa ang Caesarian section.
meet Rylee, my pretty daughter!
Then the rest is history! Our daughter now is very active, with unlimited kakulitan,she is now entering terrible two’s phase, hehe..
Good luck to us! lol..
And let me explain the meaning of our baby’s name:
Janina – means “Gift from God”, she is indeed the best gift that we have ever received in our life.
Rylee – combination of our name, Ryan and Lally but with different spelling.
Thanks everyone for reading and I hope I became an inspiration in my own little way.
I would like to say it was an easy journey, but it was not.
Prayer + Faith + Hope = Miracle, that is the formula I believed in.
Just keep holding on to your dreams because dreams do come true!
“TO GOD BE THE GLORY!”
Happy 2nd birthday my darling baby, Janina Rylee!
We love you to the moon and back!
Whew! What a journey! Despite the hardship and long wait, you've got a very rewarding gift indeed! 🙂 God is truly good! Reading your story makes me so thankful that my pregnancies were easy. God bless
God is really good! 🙂 Everything is perfect in His time. Happy birthday to your cutie!
I had miscarriage too during my first pregnancy and I was so sad because we wanted to have a baby but God make things beautiful in His time. I was lucky because I got pregnant 4 months after my D&C. I have a friend, she had miscarriage on her first pregnancy and after 12 years pa nasundan ulit. Naubos na nga daw yaman niya magkababy lang. Expensive kasi yung fertility check, magpafreeze ng sperm and etc.
I have always thought that all women are blessed with the natural instinct to be a mother, but as one of my co-mommy bloggers made me realized, it's actually not true. Some women were not meant to be a mother and some women like you were blessed with inner strength to be a good mom.
Congrats on bringing an angel to the world mommy, and Happy birthday to your wee one 😉
I was one of the really happy ones when i heard the news that you finally have a baby!!!! Hugs
This is really inspiring. And I have to commend your faith and courage for holding on despite the three miscarriages. Bilib ako sayo, mommy! 🙂
Oh my! I felt like crying after reading this 🙁 I just had a miscarriage few weeks ago and I still cry everytime I remember it. Like you, it was just a gestational sac. We were really sad especially that excited na young eldest namin and she still keeps on talking about a brother. But I am really really happy for you that you finally got a child. I just can't imagine how hard it is to have 3 miscarriage…I admire you. You are strong! Hugs mommy!
That is such a great story of hope. Never lose hope talaga. I also experienced miscarriages, twice. So, I know the feeling. But I also never lost hope. I have 3 kids now and I feel so blessed. Enjoy mommyhood, Lally. 🙂
God is good all the time! Happy 1st birthday!
such an inspiring story.. I really do admire people who never loses hope even when all things seem gloomy… thanks for sharing… 😀
God is really good! thanks sis!
Thank you sis!
true sis, expensive talaga kaya we stop muna sa medications. It is truly a miracle in this modern times! 😀
thank you Mommy Lani!
thank you sis!
thank you sis Gail! hugs 😀
thank you sis! My faith is my pampalakas ng loob! 😀
hugs to you mommy! Be strong din. Maybe it's not yet the right time! 😀
thank you sis!
thanks mommy Janice! Oh well, sana maka 3 kids pa din ako..haha 😀
thanks sis!
Very inspiring story Mommy Lally! God's greatest blessing talaga si Rylee. You are such a brave woman! Same here, nag clomid rin ako and talaga nag pray kami kay Padre Pio para magka baby kami ni hubby, then thank God after 10 months of being married, nabuntis na ko.. 🙂
Naku what a journey! My bestfriend's also having issues with conceiving so I feel you kasi she's really close to me and I can feel her frustrations and sadness and everything. Sana like you, they'd be blessed with a little one soon to make their family extra happy. I won't say "complete" kasi hindi naman porket walang baby hindi na "complete" diba? I am so inspired with this. And well, Rylee's worth the wait! Look at your beautiful baby oh!
What a journey! (parang kanta lang hehe) Your story is such a great testimony of God's faithfulness in fulfilling His good promises 🙂
I just had a Blighted Ovum two months ago for our suppossedly second baby. I was heartbroken. I know how you must feel back then but now that you have your little princess, I know how happy you are. BTW, I saw you at the Jollitown event.
I'm so inspired and touched by your story. Thank you for sharing your journey. We're pretty lucky and can easily get pregnant. I think in our case it's taking care not to! I don't know how I would take it if I were in your situation. I hope I would be as determined and patient as you were.
Whew! I really admire your strength and faith sis!
So admiring. God is great he just sometimes works in mysterious ways! God bless you & your beautiful family!!! Thanks for sharing your journey. Xoxox
Nice Post